It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything but believe me my mind is writing things down, just wish I could remember them all! So I just thought I’d check in and talk about the last few days/weeks.
Nothing amazing or ground breaking has happened, but I am still on the path of new habits and self discovery. I am currently on Day 24 of being alcohol free. I will write more about my 30 days when it is over next week. Hard to believe I am almost done!
I started sitting outside every morning, now that God is done cooking Texas for the season, and reading. I read the Alcohol Experiment’s daily chapter and another book for balance. Last weeks book was “Make Your Bed” by Admiral McRaven. A short motivational book to inspire you to change your life. It was pretty good. Some pretty obvious advice, but well written and easy to keep in mind. One of the first things he says is “Make your bed every morning” and so I started making my bed. A small gesture, but I started it and now it feels weird NOT to make my bed…lol!
I am continuing to read the “Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents” and its helping me connect the dots on a few things. I am anxious to see what some “next steps” might be to put into practice. I was talking with my SIL this weekend about it and jokingly said “well its not like I’ll finish the book and boom here’s your next relationship, practice what you learned” Ain’t nobody beating on my door for that chance, but at least I’ll be ready I guess.
One of the reasons I don’t have folks lining up is the insecurities of my physical appearance. I don’t place the same physical expectations on the other person, just me. And I DO know that someone can love me in the body I am currently in, however, I do not love the body I am currently in. Thats a problem. Because of it, I hold back and thats not fair. I want to be the best version of myself and my physical health is a big part of that. Being alcohol free helps and I have also been walking at least 2 miles a day with a weighted vest. Its getting me back to the motivated physically active person I love. I don’t care what the scale will say, I only care about how I feel when I look in the mirror. I love being active, but right now I am not prepared for that like I once was.
These things keep me busy for the most part. I still have blocks of time I am completely bored, even though I have so much to do. I could be going through all my stuff so I can downsize into that 1bd/1ba condo I eventually want. I need to get my portfolio website up and running so I can build my clientele for Melstudio Designs. That btw, is happening 15 Jan 2021. It’s been a long time coming and I am so excited one of my dreams will finally come true!
Well anyway, I just wanted to check-in and write a few things down. It’s not much but its what I’ve been up to.
xo-mel